The Big C -- The plan -- The narrow path -- The narrow way -- My new life -- A cold, rainy, miserable mess -- Butterflies -- The smoky mountains -- Let's go left -- Words have meaning -- Instead, I'm happy -- Choices and consequences -- It is what it is -- Chasing dreams -- The storm -- Pilgrim's progress -- Summer solstice -- The pharmacy shelter -- Kindness and courage -- The path to freedom -- Golden days -- The white mountains -- The Maine event -- Trials and tears.